Is the Strength Within?

Lost in confusion,
smothered in doubt.
Living but not breathing,
Too proud to bitch and pout.
Lonely and downhearted,
scared of what's to be.
Afraid to even search,
of what's inside of me.
My heart is gashed open,
my mind has wondered off.
Am I even strong enough,
to deal with all I've got?
Can I love another,
when I've nothing left to give?
Do I have have the strength inside,
to even want to live?
I've felt pain in many ways,
but it's never crippled my soul.
I've had the strength to get back up,
and take the dominent role.
I thought it was supposed to get better,
and a little easier everyday.
Never thought it only gets harder,
each time I bow my head and pray.
Lord make all this just go away,
the hurt so deep inside.
Take away the heartache,
make it all subside.

Blondie