Finding Myself

Holding casual friends near,
pushing relationships aside.
Having someone close to me,
is not what I need inside.
I need to find the real me,
I've always felt I've had to hide.
Creative and witty,
I have figured that much out.
And when I'm very angry,
I always tend to shout.
Afraid of life coming at me,
scared of what I have to do.
Easily mistaken,
for being down and blue.
Though not the happiest,
I am thankful for what I have.
Like my daughter and a place to stay,
and a new relationship with my dad.
My mother and I were always close,
though we have drifted away.
I can still say I love her,
more and more everyday.
I have been afraid of what's to be,
and where I will end up.
But have learned to shut my mouth,
and never ever give up.
I wouldn't take what I've been through,
back if I had the chance.
Because that makes me who I am,
A strong woman who isn't afaraid to take a stand.
Yes I offend many,
and many more I appaul.
But I am proud of who I am,
I'm someone who you can always call.
I am honest as it comes,
beautiful inside.
And now I know my true self,
I never have to hide.

Blondie