I have played the game and lost,
yet lost the game and won.
In the end it hurt so bad,
but still I had so much fun.
I loved the hated often,
and hated the loved too much.
To find that true love I wanted,
that hot and tingly touch.
I loved the wrong person,
yet once again.
Is love a game of trial and error,
you can never win?
I've had my share of good times,
too many of the bad.
Just looking for that true love,
I have always wanted so bad.
I close my eyes to remember,
all that we used to have.
It was all just a dream,
I never really had.
When I awake from this nightmare,
I bow my head to pray.
Thank you Lord for what I have,
I wouldn't have it any other way.
For the hard times make us stronger,
the good times make us weak.
Yet we never really find the answer,
to what it is we seek.
It's that way for a reason,
soon we all will know.
For when we meet our maker,
the answers he will show.
Until then we have to deal,
with all life throws our way.
Using our morals as a guide,
each and every day.
Blondie
About Me
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Daughter
Many sleepless nights,
I have spent being alone.
But now I have a daughter,
each and every night to hold.
I love her more than life,
more than anyone could know.
Besides another mother,
who has their own to hold.
She looks at we with wonder,
and sparkles in her eyes.
She knows not the creul hard world,
just flowers and butterflies.
She gives me innocence,
I once had lost along the way.
And for that I will always love her,
each and every single day.
*a poem about my daughters gifts to me
Blondie
I have spent being alone.
But now I have a daughter,
each and every night to hold.
I love her more than life,
more than anyone could know.
Besides another mother,
who has their own to hold.
She looks at we with wonder,
and sparkles in her eyes.
She knows not the creul hard world,
just flowers and butterflies.
She gives me innocence,
I once had lost along the way.
And for that I will always love her,
each and every single day.
*a poem about my daughters gifts to me
Blondie
If I had wings (published)
If I had wings, I'd fly away;
but only,closer to you.
Lying in your arms,
for just a week or two.
If I had wings,I'd reach the moon;i
n a single day.
But please don't worry,
beside me is where you'd stay.
If I had wings, I'd be free;t
o do whatever I please.
But I don't,and I have you;
and that's better,than any wings could be.
Copyright ©2006
Blondie
but only,closer to you.
Lying in your arms,
for just a week or two.
If I had wings,I'd reach the moon;i
n a single day.
But please don't worry,
beside me is where you'd stay.
If I had wings, I'd be free;t
o do whatever I please.
But I don't,and I have you;
and that's better,than any wings could be.
Copyright ©2006
Blondie
Love (Published)
Love is like a candleburning in the night
and if I had you I wouldn't have a single burning fright.
So hold me close and want me
and never let me go.
Because I will love you forever
that is why I wrote this poem.
Copyright ©2006
Blondie
and if I had you I wouldn't have a single burning fright.
So hold me close and want me
and never let me go.
Because I will love you forever
that is why I wrote this poem.
Copyright ©2006
Blondie
Never Give Up (Published)
I used to lie and wonder,
if there was a true love.
I wondered if God could even hear me,
if he listened from up above.
I knew that time was a virtue,
and things could and would change.
It just all seemed so useless,
with all the darkness, clouds, and rain.
Even though I waited long,
and traveled a tathered road.
I finally found that love,
and it is strong and very bold.
The moral of the story,
is to never give up at all.
Because behind all the cold hearts,
is a lover down for it all.
Copyright ©2006
Blondie
if there was a true love.
I wondered if God could even hear me,
if he listened from up above.
I knew that time was a virtue,
and things could and would change.
It just all seemed so useless,
with all the darkness, clouds, and rain.
Even though I waited long,
and traveled a tathered road.
I finally found that love,
and it is strong and very bold.
The moral of the story,
is to never give up at all.
Because behind all the cold hearts,
is a lover down for it all.
Copyright ©2006
Blondie
Is the Strength Within?
Lost in confusion,
smothered in doubt.
Living but not breathing,
Too proud to bitch and pout.
Lonely and downhearted,
scared of what's to be.
Afraid to even search,
of what's inside of me.
My heart is gashed open,
my mind has wondered off.
Am I even strong enough,
to deal with all I've got?
Can I love another,
when I've nothing left to give?
Do I have have the strength inside,
to even want to live?
I've felt pain in many ways,
but it's never crippled my soul.
I've had the strength to get back up,
and take the dominent role.
I thought it was supposed to get better,
and a little easier everyday.
Never thought it only gets harder,
each time I bow my head and pray.
Lord make all this just go away,
the hurt so deep inside.
Take away the heartache,
make it all subside.
Blondie
smothered in doubt.
Living but not breathing,
Too proud to bitch and pout.
Lonely and downhearted,
scared of what's to be.
Afraid to even search,
of what's inside of me.
My heart is gashed open,
my mind has wondered off.
Am I even strong enough,
to deal with all I've got?
Can I love another,
when I've nothing left to give?
Do I have have the strength inside,
to even want to live?
I've felt pain in many ways,
but it's never crippled my soul.
I've had the strength to get back up,
and take the dominent role.
I thought it was supposed to get better,
and a little easier everyday.
Never thought it only gets harder,
each time I bow my head and pray.
Lord make all this just go away,
the hurt so deep inside.
Take away the heartache,
make it all subside.
Blondie
Will it ever be?
I lie awake at night and wonder,
if we'll ever be again.
If you'll want to hold me,
if you'll again be my best friend.
I never once stopped loving you,
though I've said it many times.
I could never stop loving you,
even in with all your lies.
I want us to be,
just like the moon and the stars.
Always shining bright,
but never very far.
I want you in my life,
like I want nothing else.
And I will never stop loving you,
even though our love has failed.
Blondie
if we'll ever be again.
If you'll want to hold me,
if you'll again be my best friend.
I never once stopped loving you,
though I've said it many times.
I could never stop loving you,
even in with all your lies.
I want us to be,
just like the moon and the stars.
Always shining bright,
but never very far.
I want you in my life,
like I want nothing else.
And I will never stop loving you,
even though our love has failed.
Blondie
Poem for a dear friend
Temptaions unkonown to others,
rushes of indescribable force.
Putting cartoons in your head,
of horror films that just get worse.
Swallow the pain, the lump in your throat,
and run away to hide.
Because you feel your not strong enough,
and there is no one on your side.
Demonic creatures begin rising,
yet you are playing on the same side.
It's not horns and fire that scare you,
it is angel wings and butterflies.
Pull it back and push it in,
feel the need to bleed.
Just a little mark of satan,
you can hide it with your sleeve.
No one else has been there,
the same place as you.
But I have been in deep and hard,
not really knowing what to do.
The pain is unmeasurable,
watching it happen all over again.
A game of getting off the horse,
a game that I know anyone can win.
You have the strength to walk away,
to live and breath, not die.
But you keep choosing death,
and I can't understand why.
I walked away with dirty hands,
that now have been washed clean.
And I know deep down you have the strength,
to do the same as me.
So close your eyes and remember,
about the good times that we've had.
Because I know you can stop the madness,
and I won't let go off your hand.
Drop the rig and turn away,
real life is better, I know.
Because a junkie is nothing,
it is the pain of life that makes us grow.
And I want to feel the pain with you,
and the pride as our love grows.
You can not pretend and hide,
from what I know is true.
because I did these things,
the exact same way as you.
So take my hand and come with me,
to a special place.
I'll wipe away those hidden fears,
and with love they will be replaced.
*When the person I wrote this for reads it, they will know. No need to name names. ;)
Blondie
rushes of indescribable force.
Putting cartoons in your head,
of horror films that just get worse.
Swallow the pain, the lump in your throat,
and run away to hide.
Because you feel your not strong enough,
and there is no one on your side.
Demonic creatures begin rising,
yet you are playing on the same side.
It's not horns and fire that scare you,
it is angel wings and butterflies.
Pull it back and push it in,
feel the need to bleed.
Just a little mark of satan,
you can hide it with your sleeve.
No one else has been there,
the same place as you.
But I have been in deep and hard,
not really knowing what to do.
The pain is unmeasurable,
watching it happen all over again.
A game of getting off the horse,
a game that I know anyone can win.
You have the strength to walk away,
to live and breath, not die.
But you keep choosing death,
and I can't understand why.
I walked away with dirty hands,
that now have been washed clean.
And I know deep down you have the strength,
to do the same as me.
So close your eyes and remember,
about the good times that we've had.
Because I know you can stop the madness,
and I won't let go off your hand.
Drop the rig and turn away,
real life is better, I know.
Because a junkie is nothing,
it is the pain of life that makes us grow.
And I want to feel the pain with you,
and the pride as our love grows.
You can not pretend and hide,
from what I know is true.
because I did these things,
the exact same way as you.
So take my hand and come with me,
to a special place.
I'll wipe away those hidden fears,
and with love they will be replaced.
*When the person I wrote this for reads it, they will know. No need to name names. ;)
Blondie
What I really want
Butterflies in my stomach,
Lying awake for what's to be.
Living for tomorrow to come,
So we can come to be.
Longing to be loved,
Loving to be longed.
Someone to stand beside,
and always do no wrong.
I loved the wrong percentage,
hated the wrong too few.
Half the people in the world,
feel the same as me and you.
We're scared to give our hearts,
yet will eventually let them go.
Because we long for true love,
The kind that grows and grows.
One day we will find it,
One day it will be.
But when that happens,
We'll we be ready?
We'll just have to wait and see.
Blondie
Lying awake for what's to be.
Living for tomorrow to come,
So we can come to be.
Longing to be loved,
Loving to be longed.
Someone to stand beside,
and always do no wrong.
I loved the wrong percentage,
hated the wrong too few.
Half the people in the world,
feel the same as me and you.
We're scared to give our hearts,
yet will eventually let them go.
Because we long for true love,
The kind that grows and grows.
One day we will find it,
One day it will be.
But when that happens,
We'll we be ready?
We'll just have to wait and see.
Blondie
who you are...
Say tomorrow I called you,
asked you for some help.
Would you even answer,
or would I be all by myself?
Once we were so close,
inceperable, I'd say.
But now it is like we never knew,
each other just one day.
You used to say, you wanted me,
more than I could know.
now you say, I don't want you,
you deserve more than I can show.
I wanted you so dearly,
I thought a choice like that was mine.
But once again you chose for me,
because you thoughtI was weak at times.
I have the strength to go on living,
but is that what I want?
To find a lover elsewhere,
be alone for right now.
Give up on all our good times,
and never question how.
How our love got this way,
how you gave up way too soon.
How your mood it really changes,
with a shift in the tides and the moon.
Will you love me tomorrow,
I am not sure if I can say.
But I do know you'll come running back,
and it will be too late on that day.
You chose to run away from me,
to give me up for good.
All for just some selfish reasons,
That I never understood.
I gave up what I knew in life,
to let you show me more.
But you pushed me away,
and slammed shut that open door.
I loved you once very much,
before I knew who you really were.
Now I hate who you are,
because you are worthless "fo sho."
Blondie
asked you for some help.
Would you even answer,
or would I be all by myself?
Once we were so close,
inceperable, I'd say.
But now it is like we never knew,
each other just one day.
You used to say, you wanted me,
more than I could know.
now you say, I don't want you,
you deserve more than I can show.
I wanted you so dearly,
I thought a choice like that was mine.
But once again you chose for me,
because you thoughtI was weak at times.
I have the strength to go on living,
but is that what I want?
To find a lover elsewhere,
be alone for right now.
Give up on all our good times,
and never question how.
How our love got this way,
how you gave up way too soon.
How your mood it really changes,
with a shift in the tides and the moon.
Will you love me tomorrow,
I am not sure if I can say.
But I do know you'll come running back,
and it will be too late on that day.
You chose to run away from me,
to give me up for good.
All for just some selfish reasons,
That I never understood.
I gave up what I knew in life,
to let you show me more.
But you pushed me away,
and slammed shut that open door.
I loved you once very much,
before I knew who you really were.
Now I hate who you are,
because you are worthless "fo sho."
Blondie
Deep
What has the world come to,
why is it so vain?
Why do so many mindless people,
have to cause the innocent so much pain?
When Jesus died on the cross,
he said he did it for us all.
He must have been more forgiving,
than the thugs with their "balls to the wall."
If he did this for us,
thousands of years before you and me.
Then why can't we all be friends,
will end up in the same place, you see.
Being hard makes you feel stronger,
when in fact, your very weak.
But when you are burning in the fire of hell,
you'll be wishing it was our Lord you seeked.
The time is coming quickly,
now it won't be too long.
Until we will all meet our maker,
and have to answer for our wrongs.
I want you all there with me,
and to be able hear "your through."
Because I have many questions,
that can't be answered by me or you.
So do what's right and seek the Lord,
in everything you do.
Because the rapture is coming,
and I want to see you there too
Blondie
why is it so vain?
Why do so many mindless people,
have to cause the innocent so much pain?
When Jesus died on the cross,
he said he did it for us all.
He must have been more forgiving,
than the thugs with their "balls to the wall."
If he did this for us,
thousands of years before you and me.
Then why can't we all be friends,
will end up in the same place, you see.
Being hard makes you feel stronger,
when in fact, your very weak.
But when you are burning in the fire of hell,
you'll be wishing it was our Lord you seeked.
The time is coming quickly,
now it won't be too long.
Until we will all meet our maker,
and have to answer for our wrongs.
I want you all there with me,
and to be able hear "your through."
Because I have many questions,
that can't be answered by me or you.
So do what's right and seek the Lord,
in everything you do.
Because the rapture is coming,
and I want to see you there too
Blondie
We will find the answer
Living for that moment,
yet letting it slip by.
All the questions answered,
except the hardest one, why.
Never really breathing,
Dying to be understood.
Tomorrow holds a dim light,
of all the could's and would's.
Someone knows the answers,
to the questions we each hold.
But will we ever find them,
and be so very bold.
To say I want to know right now,
why my wife has left.
Why I was the scrawny one,
and never tried my best?
Was it the pride inside me,
welled up so very deep?
Or was it the wounds I have,
that turned me into the black sheep?
I see his mouth about to open,
and I turn and run away.
Because I can not bear the answers,
of all the questions today.
Blondie
yet letting it slip by.
All the questions answered,
except the hardest one, why.
Never really breathing,
Dying to be understood.
Tomorrow holds a dim light,
of all the could's and would's.
Someone knows the answers,
to the questions we each hold.
But will we ever find them,
and be so very bold.
To say I want to know right now,
why my wife has left.
Why I was the scrawny one,
and never tried my best?
Was it the pride inside me,
welled up so very deep?
Or was it the wounds I have,
that turned me into the black sheep?
I see his mouth about to open,
and I turn and run away.
Because I can not bear the answers,
of all the questions today.
Blondie
Maybe it is not for me
I want someone to love me,
not just for a while like I've seen.
To never leave a stone unturned,
For something I believe.
I wait to hear the answers,
I wanted my whole life.
Like forever isn't long enough,
for you to be my wife.
I lie awake and wonder,
if all of this will come.
If I am just nieve about it,
and acting very dumb.
I want someone to hold me,
very tight and not let go.
Not someone who just thinks of our love,
as bump along the road.
I thought I had found these things,
many times before.
But I was just a mindless pawn,
until they slammed the door.
I want these things so badly,
that my heart aches each day.
I am beginning to think it won't happen,
it is not meant for me that way.
When you heart has been thrown around,
like mine has so much.
You tend to loose the way to love,
and get caught up in all the lust.
One day it will come,
I keep telling myself.
But deep down I truly know,
with love I'll never have the wealth.
Blondie
not just for a while like I've seen.
To never leave a stone unturned,
For something I believe.
I wait to hear the answers,
I wanted my whole life.
Like forever isn't long enough,
for you to be my wife.
I lie awake and wonder,
if all of this will come.
If I am just nieve about it,
and acting very dumb.
I want someone to hold me,
very tight and not let go.
Not someone who just thinks of our love,
as bump along the road.
I thought I had found these things,
many times before.
But I was just a mindless pawn,
until they slammed the door.
I want these things so badly,
that my heart aches each day.
I am beginning to think it won't happen,
it is not meant for me that way.
When you heart has been thrown around,
like mine has so much.
You tend to loose the way to love,
and get caught up in all the lust.
One day it will come,
I keep telling myself.
But deep down I truly know,
with love I'll never have the wealth.
Blondie
Satan
Grab the point and load it,
put it to my arm.
The rush of a lifetime,
it can do no harm.
Beads of sweat on my forehead,
the room begins to spin.
I swallow a lump in my throat,
as I feel an orgasm begin.
All the pain has melted away,
I have to find something to do.
I want to share this feeling,
would you like some too?
I could conquer the world,
if I didn't see everything so clear.
I can accomplish anything,
There is nothing I have to fear.
I haven't ate in days,
slept even less than that.
I have this paranoia,
I think there is a rat.
I need another boost,
it has only been half a day.
We'll have to make another batch,
there is nothing else to say.
Get the supplies I have a place,
where we can get it done.
Halfway through I see a light,
a shadow of someone with a gun.
I knew I smelled a fucking rat,
I wasn't that far out.
If I don't kill you before they get me,
you'll be alive only until I get out.
I pull an icepick from my sock,
I will not go alive.
I need a bump and will get it,
it is the dope that make me strive.
I hear DEA freeze!
Fuck this shit I'm down.
And I plunge the icepick into the pigs heart,
his smile turns into a frown.
I grab the last of the dope and run,
I have to get one last hit.
After this, I SWEAR this is all,
one more time is it.
Grab the point and load it,
put it to my arm.
The rush of a lifetime,
it can do no harm.
Beads of sweat on my forehead,
the room begins to spin.
I swallow a lump in my throat,
as I feel an orgasm begin.
All the pain has melted away,
I have to find something to do.
I want to share this feeling,
would you like some too?
Blondie
put it to my arm.
The rush of a lifetime,
it can do no harm.
Beads of sweat on my forehead,
the room begins to spin.
I swallow a lump in my throat,
as I feel an orgasm begin.
All the pain has melted away,
I have to find something to do.
I want to share this feeling,
would you like some too?
I could conquer the world,
if I didn't see everything so clear.
I can accomplish anything,
There is nothing I have to fear.
I haven't ate in days,
slept even less than that.
I have this paranoia,
I think there is a rat.
I need another boost,
it has only been half a day.
We'll have to make another batch,
there is nothing else to say.
Get the supplies I have a place,
where we can get it done.
Halfway through I see a light,
a shadow of someone with a gun.
I knew I smelled a fucking rat,
I wasn't that far out.
If I don't kill you before they get me,
you'll be alive only until I get out.
I pull an icepick from my sock,
I will not go alive.
I need a bump and will get it,
it is the dope that make me strive.
I hear DEA freeze!
Fuck this shit I'm down.
And I plunge the icepick into the pigs heart,
his smile turns into a frown.
I grab the last of the dope and run,
I have to get one last hit.
After this, I SWEAR this is all,
one more time is it.
Grab the point and load it,
put it to my arm.
The rush of a lifetime,
it can do no harm.
Beads of sweat on my forehead,
the room begins to spin.
I swallow a lump in my throat,
as I feel an orgasm begin.
All the pain has melted away,
I have to find something to do.
I want to share this feeling,
would you like some too?
Blondie
Untitled
Begging for respect,
wanting to be heard.
From your mouth,
I've not heard a truthful word.
You were someone I thought I loved,
but now I know your not.
I used to want to be with you,
and give you all I've got.
I wish I never met you,
never gave you half a chance.
Because you are so wicked,
and can never take a stand.
We used to be so close,
until you pushed me far away.
Now you give me nothing,
not even the time of day.
Shows not only me,
the nothing that you are.
But everyone who reads this,
the people close and very far.
I never knew that hate,
would be such a big part of my life.
I guess I should have thought about that,
before I agreed to be your wife.
I would not give you anything,
even if I could.
You could be hurt and lonely,
and I would walk away, just like I should.
You made me feel emotion,
I never thought I would.
And I wouldn't let you take that back,
even if you could.
Because deep down I enjoy,
hating you today.
That raw hard emotion,
I wouldn't have it any other way.
Blondie
wanting to be heard.
From your mouth,
I've not heard a truthful word.
You were someone I thought I loved,
but now I know your not.
I used to want to be with you,
and give you all I've got.
I wish I never met you,
never gave you half a chance.
Because you are so wicked,
and can never take a stand.
We used to be so close,
until you pushed me far away.
Now you give me nothing,
not even the time of day.
Shows not only me,
the nothing that you are.
But everyone who reads this,
the people close and very far.
I never knew that hate,
would be such a big part of my life.
I guess I should have thought about that,
before I agreed to be your wife.
I would not give you anything,
even if I could.
You could be hurt and lonely,
and I would walk away, just like I should.
You made me feel emotion,
I never thought I would.
And I wouldn't let you take that back,
even if you could.
Because deep down I enjoy,
hating you today.
That raw hard emotion,
I wouldn't have it any other way.
Blondie
Beautiful Dreams of a Perfect Life
Beautiful dreams of the perfect life,
is something I've always had.
Though I can not really say,
that my life has been that bad.
I have seen the bottom of bottles,
and sung the jailhouse blues.
Though there are many other things about me,
that were happier and smooth.
I've been blessed with unconditional true love,
something many never know.
An angel from heaven sent me a daughter,
that has an indescribable glow.
She has changed me,
in so many ways you see.
She taught me about things,
that no one could ever get through to me.
Like tomorrow is a new day,
and beauty comes from within.
She taught me about being strong,
and knowing when to not do something again.
I am happy that I know her,
estatic that I am her mom.
No one else has held her as close,
or has that special bond.
I've raised her as a single mom,
and did it with pride.
Sometimes I wonder how her Daddy walked away,
when I could never leave her side.
My Beautiful dreams of a perfect life,
were nothing close to this.
Because a life this perfect,
I could have never even wished.
Blondie
is something I've always had.
Though I can not really say,
that my life has been that bad.
I have seen the bottom of bottles,
and sung the jailhouse blues.
Though there are many other things about me,
that were happier and smooth.
I've been blessed with unconditional true love,
something many never know.
An angel from heaven sent me a daughter,
that has an indescribable glow.
She has changed me,
in so many ways you see.
She taught me about things,
that no one could ever get through to me.
Like tomorrow is a new day,
and beauty comes from within.
She taught me about being strong,
and knowing when to not do something again.
I am happy that I know her,
estatic that I am her mom.
No one else has held her as close,
or has that special bond.
I've raised her as a single mom,
and did it with pride.
Sometimes I wonder how her Daddy walked away,
when I could never leave her side.
My Beautiful dreams of a perfect life,
were nothing close to this.
Because a life this perfect,
I could have never even wished.
Blondie
Long Last My Love (New Style Try)
Long-last my love, your found!
Everlasting touch upon the world.Lovely words of future things to come.
Long-last my love, your found!
Beauty deep inbedded in your soul. Leaving dry eyes teary and man weeping.
Long-last my love, your found!
Unmeasurable boundaries broken each day.Understanding words unfounded in life.
Long-last my love, your found!
Unforseen madness melted at touch. Beauty never missed by anyone who sees.
Long-last my love, your found!
Touching lives you've never seen. Opening windows nailed shut to others.
Long-last my love, your found!
Holding back unforseen chaos. Spreading the wings of lost souls.
Long-last my love, your found!
Ever holding up the world on your shoulders. Living for not only the moment, but the future.
Long-last my love, your found!
Holding heads up for those who don't have the strength. Giving guidance to the evil harsh world.
Long-last my love, your found!
Hoping for nothing, knowing you can conquer the world. Leaving no part of anything forgotten or untouched.
Long-last my love, your found!
Having the strength to pull the good in the world together. Feeding each hungry mouth and never slowing down.
Long-last my love, your found!
Holding morals close by like a child.Abolishing terror in every way.
Long-last my love, your found! Long-last my love, your found!
*Trying a new style of writing to see where I can get with it. Form may not be too good, but I think I got the general concept. Comments welcome. Suggestions needed on overall appearence and grasp of the public.
Blondie
Everlasting touch upon the world.Lovely words of future things to come.
Long-last my love, your found!
Beauty deep inbedded in your soul. Leaving dry eyes teary and man weeping.
Long-last my love, your found!
Unmeasurable boundaries broken each day.Understanding words unfounded in life.
Long-last my love, your found!
Unforseen madness melted at touch. Beauty never missed by anyone who sees.
Long-last my love, your found!
Touching lives you've never seen. Opening windows nailed shut to others.
Long-last my love, your found!
Holding back unforseen chaos. Spreading the wings of lost souls.
Long-last my love, your found!
Ever holding up the world on your shoulders. Living for not only the moment, but the future.
Long-last my love, your found!
Holding heads up for those who don't have the strength. Giving guidance to the evil harsh world.
Long-last my love, your found!
Hoping for nothing, knowing you can conquer the world. Leaving no part of anything forgotten or untouched.
Long-last my love, your found!
Having the strength to pull the good in the world together. Feeding each hungry mouth and never slowing down.
Long-last my love, your found!
Holding morals close by like a child.Abolishing terror in every way.
Long-last my love, your found! Long-last my love, your found!
*Trying a new style of writing to see where I can get with it. Form may not be too good, but I think I got the general concept. Comments welcome. Suggestions needed on overall appearence and grasp of the public.
Blondie
Finding Myself
Holding casual friends near,
pushing relationships aside.
Having someone close to me,
is not what I need inside.
I need to find the real me,
I've always felt I've had to hide.
Creative and witty,
I have figured that much out.
And when I'm very angry,
I always tend to shout.
Afraid of life coming at me,
scared of what I have to do.
Easily mistaken,
for being down and blue.
Though not the happiest,
I am thankful for what I have.
Like my daughter and a place to stay,
and a new relationship with my dad.
My mother and I were always close,
though we have drifted away.
I can still say I love her,
more and more everyday.
I have been afraid of what's to be,
and where I will end up.
But have learned to shut my mouth,
and never ever give up.
I wouldn't take what I've been through,
back if I had the chance.
Because that makes me who I am,
A strong woman who isn't afaraid to take a stand.
Yes I offend many,
and many more I appaul.
But I am proud of who I am,
I'm someone who you can always call.
I am honest as it comes,
beautiful inside.
And now I know my true self,
I never have to hide.
Blondie
pushing relationships aside.
Having someone close to me,
is not what I need inside.
I need to find the real me,
I've always felt I've had to hide.
Creative and witty,
I have figured that much out.
And when I'm very angry,
I always tend to shout.
Afraid of life coming at me,
scared of what I have to do.
Easily mistaken,
for being down and blue.
Though not the happiest,
I am thankful for what I have.
Like my daughter and a place to stay,
and a new relationship with my dad.
My mother and I were always close,
though we have drifted away.
I can still say I love her,
more and more everyday.
I have been afraid of what's to be,
and where I will end up.
But have learned to shut my mouth,
and never ever give up.
I wouldn't take what I've been through,
back if I had the chance.
Because that makes me who I am,
A strong woman who isn't afaraid to take a stand.
Yes I offend many,
and many more I appaul.
But I am proud of who I am,
I'm someone who you can always call.
I am honest as it comes,
beautiful inside.
And now I know my true self,
I never have to hide.
Blondie
Demonic
Cruel harsh punishment,
hatred stuffed within.
My mind says there is a way,
that I can finally win.
Firey eyes of envy,
Blackend heart of coal.
Evil thoughts of revenge and death,
that no one even knows.
Satanic pleasures rising,
tortures to be seen.
For an enemies horrific screams,
I have signed my soul to a deed.
Crippled little body,
laying in a rat infested gutter.
Spit in his direction,
as I hear him begin to mutter.
Little words of sorry's,
please give the poor boy your hand.
He says he'll give an arm to not feel this,
and let you take your stand.
Yet I can't help but remember,
how my cries were so unheard.
When all I needed was his voice,
he wouldn't hear a word.
So fuck the poor pitiful boy,
who once thought he was a man.
Begging for another chance,
from once his number one fan.
How sweet revenge is,
when they have no other way.
They worship the ground you walk on,
and listen to all you have to say.
Let him die slowly,
the same way I did inside.
The only difference from us now,
is in a while he won't be alive.
I hear his screams get weaker,
as I drop down to my knees.
And tell the pathetic looser,
I love to see him bleed.
Remember when I wanted you,
and you played me like a fool.
Well you fucking pussy, guess what?
The game has wickedly turned on you.
Now take your punishment,
like the man that you say you are.
Because when I get done with you,
you won't be going very far.
I lick my lips suductively,
I have to taste the blood.
Because this is the piece of shit,
for once I had so much love.
But that love turned to hatred,
when he stomped all over my heart.
Not just once but many times,
and now he must be ripped apart.
I wipe a tear from his eye,
and lick my fingertip.
This whole revenge thing is more rejuvinating,
than I could have ever wished.
Do you love me now baby,
after all of this pain?
If you say you do,
I could be tempted to let you live one more day.
As he is trembling,
he starts to mumble words.
I cover his mouth with my palm,
to beg for his life he doesn't deserve.
I take a piece of paper from my pocket,
and let him have a look.
It's the beginning of his lies to me,
with them I could write a book.
He hangs his head and says he's sorry,
but this I do not believe.
I slam a rock into his face,
and wipe the shattered bone off with my sleeve.
By now I have a demonic grin,
from the let out of pent-up rage.
The poor soul is barely hanging on now,
the sad part is his own life he could have saved.
I have to let this part of my life go,
and there is only one way how.
He has felt my wrath for a while,
he has to die right now.
I grab his hair, pull up his head,
and kiss him one last time.
I let him know that the way he done things,
is what made me loose my mind.
I ask him if there is anything else,
that he has to say.
He says there is a letter in his pocket,
he was going to give to me today.
I am not falling for that shit again,
I wrap my hands around his head.
Kiss his forehead and keep twisting,
until I know he is dead.
I get up as he slumps over,
and falls face down to the ground.
Out of his pocket falls a letter,
and I make a gasping sound.
I pick it up and read it,
the trembling begins.
It says how truly sorry he was,
for doing what he did.
It continues with he wants nothing more,
than to be with me again.
I never could express to you,
how sorry I truly am.
I know that you love me,
and you are my number one fan.
And to kiss your beautiful lips one last time,
my last breath I would gladly give.
Without your tender heartfelt love,
I can no longer live.
All the punctuation is perfect little hearts,
It has a P.S that reads:
We should have never been apart.
If only I'd been strong enough,
to get through one more day.
I would have had what I wanted all along,
and we would have been together until this day.
Blondie
hatred stuffed within.
My mind says there is a way,
that I can finally win.
Firey eyes of envy,
Blackend heart of coal.
Evil thoughts of revenge and death,
that no one even knows.
Satanic pleasures rising,
tortures to be seen.
For an enemies horrific screams,
I have signed my soul to a deed.
Crippled little body,
laying in a rat infested gutter.
Spit in his direction,
as I hear him begin to mutter.
Little words of sorry's,
please give the poor boy your hand.
He says he'll give an arm to not feel this,
and let you take your stand.
Yet I can't help but remember,
how my cries were so unheard.
When all I needed was his voice,
he wouldn't hear a word.
So fuck the poor pitiful boy,
who once thought he was a man.
Begging for another chance,
from once his number one fan.
How sweet revenge is,
when they have no other way.
They worship the ground you walk on,
and listen to all you have to say.
Let him die slowly,
the same way I did inside.
The only difference from us now,
is in a while he won't be alive.
I hear his screams get weaker,
as I drop down to my knees.
And tell the pathetic looser,
I love to see him bleed.
Remember when I wanted you,
and you played me like a fool.
Well you fucking pussy, guess what?
The game has wickedly turned on you.
Now take your punishment,
like the man that you say you are.
Because when I get done with you,
you won't be going very far.
I lick my lips suductively,
I have to taste the blood.
Because this is the piece of shit,
for once I had so much love.
But that love turned to hatred,
when he stomped all over my heart.
Not just once but many times,
and now he must be ripped apart.
I wipe a tear from his eye,
and lick my fingertip.
This whole revenge thing is more rejuvinating,
than I could have ever wished.
Do you love me now baby,
after all of this pain?
If you say you do,
I could be tempted to let you live one more day.
As he is trembling,
he starts to mumble words.
I cover his mouth with my palm,
to beg for his life he doesn't deserve.
I take a piece of paper from my pocket,
and let him have a look.
It's the beginning of his lies to me,
with them I could write a book.
He hangs his head and says he's sorry,
but this I do not believe.
I slam a rock into his face,
and wipe the shattered bone off with my sleeve.
By now I have a demonic grin,
from the let out of pent-up rage.
The poor soul is barely hanging on now,
the sad part is his own life he could have saved.
I have to let this part of my life go,
and there is only one way how.
He has felt my wrath for a while,
he has to die right now.
I grab his hair, pull up his head,
and kiss him one last time.
I let him know that the way he done things,
is what made me loose my mind.
I ask him if there is anything else,
that he has to say.
He says there is a letter in his pocket,
he was going to give to me today.
I am not falling for that shit again,
I wrap my hands around his head.
Kiss his forehead and keep twisting,
until I know he is dead.
I get up as he slumps over,
and falls face down to the ground.
Out of his pocket falls a letter,
and I make a gasping sound.
I pick it up and read it,
the trembling begins.
It says how truly sorry he was,
for doing what he did.
It continues with he wants nothing more,
than to be with me again.
I never could express to you,
how sorry I truly am.
I know that you love me,
and you are my number one fan.
And to kiss your beautiful lips one last time,
my last breath I would gladly give.
Without your tender heartfelt love,
I can no longer live.
All the punctuation is perfect little hearts,
It has a P.S that reads:
We should have never been apart.
If only I'd been strong enough,
to get through one more day.
I would have had what I wanted all along,
and we would have been together until this day.
Blondie
Best friend
Meaningless chit-chat,
one of my favorite things to do.
Talking to a dear friend,
Who will walys be there for you.
Known each other a long time.
She keeps my head up high.
By telling me that all my downs,
are sure to fly right by.
She lets me know how much I derserve,
and one day it will all be mine.
Never settle for second best,
the right things will come in time.
We've been there for each other,
before we were old enough to know what that was.
She always keeps it real with me,
She is honest as it comes.
I love her for the strength,
that she has made me find.
And I am happy that I can say,
she is a really great friend of mine.
Blondie
one of my favorite things to do.
Talking to a dear friend,
Who will walys be there for you.
Known each other a long time.
She keeps my head up high.
By telling me that all my downs,
are sure to fly right by.
She lets me know how much I derserve,
and one day it will all be mine.
Never settle for second best,
the right things will come in time.
We've been there for each other,
before we were old enough to know what that was.
She always keeps it real with me,
She is honest as it comes.
I love her for the strength,
that she has made me find.
And I am happy that I can say,
she is a really great friend of mine.
Blondie
The weight is lifted
I wake up to a sunshine day,
the rain has passed by.
I am alive in my soul again,
not a tear I have to hide.
A smile replaces that somber look,
I have had for such a long while.
The passion inside me burns once again,
I could walk a thousand miles.
I spent so long hiding who I am,
to make others feel secure.
I am ready to unleash my inhibitions,
to show the world I am not unsure.
I am happy of where I stand,
and what has come to pass me by.
With evry decision that was made,
there isn't a question why.
I have become stronger,
through letting so much go.
Smiling at the bad times,
because the great times down the road.
Blondie
the rain has passed by.
I am alive in my soul again,
not a tear I have to hide.
A smile replaces that somber look,
I have had for such a long while.
The passion inside me burns once again,
I could walk a thousand miles.
I spent so long hiding who I am,
to make others feel secure.
I am ready to unleash my inhibitions,
to show the world I am not unsure.
I am happy of where I stand,
and what has come to pass me by.
With evry decision that was made,
there isn't a question why.
I have become stronger,
through letting so much go.
Smiling at the bad times,
because the great times down the road.
Blondie
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